Don’t count the years, make the years count
It’s my birthday.
And it’s been 9 months since I left everything behind and embarked on a journey as a vagabond.
As we were planning on a little birthday-week trip, we ended up discussing about the concept of age crisis and how it seems to affect every year even younger and younger people. It’s not about feeling old, but about seeing where you’re in life and thinking where you should be or where everyone else is. We’re supposed to be beautiful, rich and famous by 30, or better yet by 25.
It’s funny cause I feel like my real, own life only begun when turning 20. It was the year I graduated and felt like I could actually choose what I want to do. So, in that sense, I’ve only lived the life that really looks like me for 6 years.
Which is a very short time.
I did have a bit of age crisis back then – when I still though that people would “grow up” and become adults. Later I’ve come to realize that everyone, or maybe most of us, are just over-grown kids. Most don’t know what they’re doing with their lives and the ones that think they do, live in an illusion.
Whenever we get in trouble during our travels, we joke that we should not have been allowed to leave by ourselves. Aren’t we supposed to have an adult, a guardian with us?
And I think that’s good. In a way we haven’t lost our inner child, we haven’t grown up to think that we know it all, we’re not too sure about ourselves or our choices. We’re still just kids, trying to do the best we can and not only survive but to live and enjoy.
This year no sign of crisis.
The thing is: I’m exactly where I want to be. I’m living the dream.
I’m living the life I want and I’m on my way to become the person I want to be. It’s not always fancy and fun, it hasn’t been what I thought it would, but it has been amazing and I can’t wait to see more. I’m not getting any younger and I don’t need to. Cause I’ve taken everything out of these years and will keep doing so. I’m not counting the years, but making the years count.
I wanted to link here one of my favorite songs; a song that guides me in every turn in life.
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